Well I am officially in the 2 week waiting zone but the reality is, when you are doing IVF, every aspect of your life can become a waiting game. And it’s a game that is not always fun.
The problem with IVF is that all one ever does is WAIT! Your life becomes measured in units of time.
You wait to get your period so you can start IVF. You wait day after day to ovulate so the frozen embryo can be transferred. Yout wait until it can be transferred. You wait for your next blood test. You wait for your next ultrasound appointment. You do the two week wait. You wait to get pregnant. You wait before you do the pregnancy test. You wait for the fertility clinic to call you back. You wait for those test results even though most times you already know the answer.
You wait to start the contraceptive pill. You wait to start the nasal spray. You wait to start injections. You wait to do the final injection. You wait to have sex so the sperm is at it’s peak. You wait for Egg Retrieval. You wait for embryo transfer. You wait to hear news about the rest of your fertilization rates so you know how many you have left on ice. You wait to get your period.
You wait until you are in a better emotional state to tell your friends and family the outcome. You wait for the grief to disappear. You wait until you can get your next appointment. You wait another month before can start again. You wait for it to be your turn to be pregnant. You wait for your weight to return back to normal after all the weight gain from ferility medications. You wait for your skin to return back to normal because the fertility medications have made your nose look like Rudoph the Red nose reindeer. You wait in a job you no longer enjoy just in case you might be pregnant.
I don’t know about you, but I feel I’ve waited long enough! I just want a positive outcome. Four more days til my next blood test. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting.
Everything you just wrote, i too am sick of waiting for…
I have just finished my last waiting game, and now i must begin the torturous game again, only this time, it is my last play.
Only once more will i wait in a job i dont really like, only once more will i count the days until my scan, only once more will i count the days till my egg pick up, only once more will i wait on the edge of my seat for my embryos to grow, and thank god only once more will i wait for a blood test that may break me into so many peices that i may not be able to be put back together.
I play this game only once more, and this time i am playing for hope, i am playing for my miracle….
Just read your blog and wanted to say good luck and thinking of you . The 2ww is without doubt the hardest bit , so I will be thinking of you .
I went through IVF 5 times , and now have two children from the process as well as working with others going through Infertility .
Every blessing on you these next few days ,
Best wishes
Anya Sizer , fertility coach
I understand where you are coming from. I hope this time your efforts will give you your miracle.